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Saturday, November 29, 200812:47 AM as christmas approaches
it signals the end of yet
another equally traumatizing
year. how much has changed
since the previous christmas
and the one before that, im
just glad certain aspects are
left constant, like you me and jm.
Sunday, October 26, 200810:46 AM here i am again. today, let's talk about relationships. (sorry is it boring you two?)

i recognised my textbook facts in my life meaning don't you think that relationships are monopolies? because once we decide to set up a firm in an industry that has ceased to exist before, we are creating a monopoly. because it is a monpoly, i cannot better emphasize my point that it has to be extreme fidelity for me, nothing less but everything more. so a monopoly states that there is a single firm/producer in the industry. (forgive me for the vague definition, for all knowledge has been cast aside since the end of exams)

noting the need to remain as a monopolist, the firm (meaning parties involved: girl&girl, boy&girl, boy&boy) invests much as total costs. secondary commitments give way for the primary one, time morphs into a key reserved only for a specific door and emotions are subject to changes. so what are we left with? the firm's performance in the short and long run. theoretically, the firm earns supernormal profits in the long run but wait, let me survey the number of firms who are forced to shut down... rival firms break down barriers to entry, causing, revenue < total variable costs, meaning subnormal profits and as the monopoly expands, diseconomies of scale sets in, causing the monopoly to destruct from within. so i hope you guys see the link i have been trying to establish, profits in a monopoly is also what we commonly use to measure the quality of life, happiness.

so let me take a lesson away from econs, a monopolist should always learn to erect high barries of entry to shut out those fucking rival firms and that complacency will just lead to the firm compromising on its supernormal profits. however, i want to see the economy as a whole. seeing a monoply against a broader backdrop, life will still continue to function in case of the absence of such a monopoly because there will not be a situation in which we should continue operations when total revenue < total variable costs. why should we compromise on our happiness and keep operating for the second best? there will be another existing industry, another person out there for us to build our lives around so that supernormal profits can once again be earned.

i will end this off the usual way, be happy you two and i love you both.
<3, zhen.
Sunday, October 12, 20085:24 PM i am here to blog again because, kk is sleeping again and guess where am i? house. i am not complaining really, frumpy clothes at home was lacking the last time round, if you get what i mean. so what are we this time around?

this time round, i dont find myself forming a fixation about the past, i dont find myself spiralling towards self doubt. doesn't it feel good? yes, it certainly does.

i am bored. play psp.
Wednesday, October 8, 20089:05 PMmaximizing im feeling very very happy now. :)

:D :D :D :D
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something about reading blog posts
from this blog makes me feel all
fuzzy inside, its the idea of privacy?

i foresee a big storm coming in my life,
i can see it from all the recent small sign;
i am bracing myself for what is to come,
though i might probably just fall anyway.
but at least you know i know that im expecting it.
i think i grew more reliant on the ideology
that i cannot control my own fate. hahaha.

your analogy sounds plausible.
although, technically, i wouldnt know.
neither she nor i have been in a relationship
and jm might be biased haha. sometimes i know
i believe that so long as the element of
like/ love/ adoration is present nothing can
possibly go too wrong, whoever the person may be.
which is why i am what i am. i tend to think that
true love indeed does exist and that it tends
towards the fairy-tale like love that you two
constantly describe mine as. that is, what i
believe, that no matter the temperate, love
in essence is still the same.

although, you two may be glad to know that
while i have this ideology embedded in
the sea of my heart, it is getting mined out.

it is impossible for such love to exist,
however much i would like it to, and
believe in it. ( it is ironic that i believe
and yet know its limited existence. )
because both ends of the stick (hot and cold)
are both equally as superficial, it is as
transient as love itself. both are mere
tools of us human kind to kill time, to make
merry and to add meaning to our pathetic lives.
both ends of the stick are only attracted to
well, attracted ends of the sticks. that is
simply the end. its impossible to ask any more
out of love than what is the mere superficial.

arent you two proud of me?
im no longer that dumb and foolish anymore.
by and by, i would like to add that
i am really REALLY craving yong tau foo right now
i was going to buy ytf today! but NOOOOO
my school canteen ran out of TOFU
whats the point of YTF if there is NO TOFU?
it should just be yong TO FU instead of
yong TAU FOO. :( going to eat yogurt now
i just ate like a quarter of a watermelon!

lyrics from a chinese song i believe
was an english song, but i like it anyway.
its quite an old song.

为你封了国境
为你赦了罪
为你撤了历史记载
为你涂了装扮
为你喝了醉
为你建了城池围墙

一颗热的心
穿着冰冷外衣
一张白的脸
漆上多少褪色的情节

在我的空虚身体里面
爱上哪个肤浅的王位
在你的空虚宝座里面
爱过什么女爵的滋味
6:11 PM okay hello blog, do you feel neglected? sorry ):
i don't know why im typing like this but i guess i just want to make my post seem longer i guess,
i feel feverish omg sigh i hate being sick. cause unlike you, (who spends your life being sick) i am healthy and kicking most of the time i don't like to disrupt my lifestyle just cause i (very unwillingly) caught some motherfucker flu bug... and no i am not at home, once again i am spending my life at kk's house i come here almost every other day, it is my second home. i want to sleep very badly but kk is taking up the bed and he ordered me to switch off the lights and this is what you get, your best friend sitting in utter darkness blogging her sickness away.

WHY GOD WHY.

i have something to share with you: the choice of being a lemon and a non lemon can be clearly illustrated with the example of taking cold and hot showers. i dont know which is your preference, i am taking a wild guess that it is hot showers.

okay look at the parallel: hot=non lemon, cold=lemon. how do we explain this?

the thought of taking hot showers is appealing to me, i think about the steam, i think about the comfort of warm water upon my skin, i think of the warmth creeping upon me and taking away fatigue. likewise, being a non lemon brings upon such sensation as well, non lemons are the way we are supposed to be, the usual boy girl affair, the gushing... and it's so easy to choose hot showers and non lemon because it's readily available, it's the way things are supposed to be done, right? but non lemon and hot showers are so alike, they are so temporal. unlike cold showers, the comfort of hot showers melts away after i step out and there you go, i don't quite find myself committing it to memory. on the totally opposite side we have cold showers and lemons and it's easy to dismiss these two if you havent actually tried it. but when you find yourself caught in the situation (camping, stripped down and realised that the heater isn't on) you just have to take it as it comes. believe it or not, the feeling of a lemon can be said to be undeniable (dont you agree with me you two) and after much hesitation you just find yourself under the shower head and fuck, it is damn good cause knowledge tells us we are doing something wrong by lemoning but yet we are not restrained by others we cant see beyond our noses to receive disapproving stares. the cold water stings, but but but but but it is hell refreshing and after stepping out of it, i find my thoughts lingering upon what i went through. so what's your verdict? no i can't make up my mind, which very well justifies my identity HAHA

gtg, i think i am watching mamamia again with kk's family. i hope my analogy was good. love you two plenty plenty.
Monday, August 4, 20081:02 PMinsects and repellent.

life may suck, but i guess if we have each other, comfort will be there.
treason, bitterness, discontent, its all around, like little insects always
ready to bite you the minute you drop your guard. well, to those damn buggers,
at least, at least at the very least, i have my own insect repellent. it fails
me at times, i fail myself at times, i fail people at times, but you know.
you know, we are playing some macdonalds game now. argh.
Friday, July 25, 20083:46 PM i am in mood of a one liner and a picture of a goldfish and that will be sufficient to convey all my current thoughts. but sigh, such an act would just mean that i am eroding, or rather the sensible, cynical, bitchy part of me is eroding to become a pool of nothingness.

dora is picking out her dvds in the library and we are going to be fucking late for friendly haha the bus is so going to leave without us.

as we continue to spy and covet... let us be immune to hurt and pain.